Hi! My name is Ashton Labruce. I am a person who considers SEX as a means of expression: an ART such as music and sculpture. I enjoy exhibitionism and I don’t believe nudity should ever be subject to censorship. Human shape is so beautiful!

I consider myself a guy next door, but I’m very adventurous and open to experimenting new things. I was given the gift of autofellatio. Furthermore, I have trained to do some Hands-Free play, handstands etc.

I find male and female bodies truly fascinating. I know society’s stance about men who think that way, but I fight against such an antique stigma.

I like luxury, glamour, quality and class. I enjoy porn with an actual story. The best stimulation is inside our minds. 

Thank you for visiting my website.

My new novel is taking shape for this early 2022!

Click HERE to learn more about my new project: I am writing a novel. I am making a contribution to the world: a novel about the matters that I am so passionate about. I’m reviving the XV century with a fictional character that will lead us through a realistic true: the male prostitution during medieval times.

Can Artificial Intelligence create art

A creative response to Kevin Berger’s post “I Am Not a Machine. Yes You Are – Debating the Impact of machine-created art,” Nautilus Science Magazine, December 4th, 2019. https://nautil.us/picassos-got-nothing-on-ai-artists-8642/ 

The following eight museums are host to most of the most acclaimed art pieces ever created in the world: The Hermitage, The Armoury Chamber, and The Tretyakov Gallery in Russia; The Louvre in France, The Sistine Chapel, The Metropolitan Museum of Art in New York City in the USA, The British Museum in the UK, and The Palace of Fine Arts in Mexico. Computers can create wonderful and certainly very appealing things. But by saying that they can  create art, their definition or art and that of the Oxford Dictionary are completely different. Art is the use of imagination to express ideas or feelings.

Beethoven, Chopin, and Rachmaninoff are not simply the names behind some of the most beautiful musical pieces ever written. They are persons who lived a life. Each one of them did. Behind each composition, and through them especially, they tell a bit of their lives in Germany, Poland, and Russia, which were the Holy Roman Empire, the Duchy of Warsaw, and the Russian Empire back then. Listening to them is like getting into a time machine and seeing a little bit of that world of theirs. A computer can create beautiful compositions, indeed. By learning the style, machines could easily fool us into thinking that their creation is something from the twentieth century when it is just something of their own, done in 2022. Does that make it art? No. Art is history. Art is emotion. Art is expression. It is not only the final product but the path to get there.

In today’s economy, it is easy to fall into the trap of defining art’s value by its selling price. Adolf Hitler’s paintings are not any better than anyone else’s were at that same level. However, several pieces of his collection sold for $500,000 at an auction in Bavaria in recent years. There is way more to art than just the print itself. There is a story behind an artist; art can be imitated but someone’s life cannot be. Now what’s a banana taped to the wall and sold for $120,000 in December 2019? Pure absurdity from Maurizio Cattelan’s to convey a satirical message. But that isn’t art. Art is creation; art is organising the natural chaos; art is getting the best of us to build something. What about Thailand’s paintings made by elephants and sold for $40,000 a piece? Well that is art. Because it involves the creation of something from the chaos of nature. Money doesn’t define the real value of a piece of art. And we can’t judge the value of it without knowing the story behind it. Just in the same way that clothing brands are more than just the name, art is more than just what we see. It is the whole history behind it what gives it value.

Now, we don’t have to disagree on whether or not machines can create art. Yes, they can, but not quite yet. Probably not in our lifetimes. To create art, Artificial Intelligence has to learn emotions and has to be able to build their own ideas. They have to live and create their own history, as it is that precise feature that defines feelings and hence good art, art worthy of admiration in the same way we admire our human art today. One day AI will live through emotions and create history; only then will they be able to create art.

Straight guys gone curious...

As of lately, being early 2022 when I’m writing this post, I’ve noticed something that I’ve found very interesting: By looking closely, it can be seen how straight guys who only post straight content on their social media stream, actually like and follow pages, posts and/or people with gay content only.

I am, indeed, not surprised by it. If anything, I’m very happy that more men are finally daring to explore their sexuality, our sexuality, and live it as fluidly as it can be. There is no bigger joy in terms of a happy sexual life than experimenting and being open minded to trying new things.

I sometimes see straight fellows like my videos. When that happens, I get very excited recalling all those occasions in which my straight bros at school made a gay joke, comment, or even action. Always playfully, of course. Yet, no joke is ever just a joke, but rather the release of hidden emotions or thoughts that have passed through our minds. Here I stand, welcoming and encouraging all and any of those men who are willing to live an experience with another man, to go ahead and do it.

Bisexuality cannot be written as the percentage that someone is into one gender and the other, being 100% in total. That’s because an experience with another male does not make a man less of a man. And the fact that a guy likes other guys, doesn’t automatically take away any of his attraction to women. As the Marquis de Sade once wrote: the sun doesn’t become less bright because of shining for others. There is enough sun for everyone to enjoy, just as we can feel enough attraction towards women and men alike.      

Smart Sex Work: putting beauty to work

Sex workers come in all faces and shapes but it is no secret that more beauty brings more success in that particular field, just as in modelling and even acting, to a certain degree. People police sex workers due to a many different things, and a main criticism towards them is because sex workers have put their beauty to work.

The fact that someone takes advantage of their beauty is a source of envy and disapproval. Let alone using that beauty along with sexual energy to get direct financial benefit: that’s a source of pure outrage. Why? That’s simply because of two main things: first, beauty is mainly inherited and hardly worked for; secondly, we’ve been taught in our society to abide by the rules. Such rules dictate that “selling your body is wrong”. Hence, it creates a great feeling of discontent to see others simply bypassing that rule to take advantage of it.

Let’s analyse the statement closer: “selling your body is wrong”. Why is it wrong? “Because it is wrong to sell your body.” Why is it wrong? “Because selling your body is wrong”. This is called, in philosophy, the “fallacy of begging the question”, which leads to pseudo-debating in circles without getting anywhere. There are stronger arguments to support this premise: because of STIs, crime, and high expense on social resources, but that’s a topic for another discussion. Today we’ll talk about “putting beauty to work”.

We can’t talk about beauty without mentioning the Caribbean. Is it wrong that Caribbean countries profit with their beauty? This isn’t meant to be a rhetorical question to trap the reader into making an extrapolated analogy with sex work. This is a question to ask ourselves: is it wrong that a country profits from its beauty? Is tourism as an industry wrong?


When intelligence is put to work, there is no dilemma whether or not that’s beneficial to society. Yet, it is also a gift from God which someone put to work to get profit from it. A scientist did work hard to get his renown but nobody worked hard to get what was given to them at birth, be it beauty or intelligence. It is wrong to punish people for whatever choices they do with their lives. Analysing a sex worker’s right to do their work should not depend on how intelligent that person is or how capable of finding an alternative means of income they are. A prostitute is only enforcing their own right to do what they please with their own body. The contempt that society feels towards them and their work is society’s fault only, for having put too much value on beauty. Sex workers are only filling an area of opportunity that is in great demand: people pay for beauty, and those who have some, are in every right to put it to work.

Why do people claim sex work is wrong

Prostitution was, for many centuries, seen as a normal activity. Everything changed when syphilis was brought into Europe by the Spaniards after the discovery of the Caribbean Islands in the late XV century. Ever since, condoms were introduced not as a means of contraception but as a means against disease. The occurrence of the HIV epidemic in the late XX century did also bring negative light on sex work and sexual activities. People who are unaware of those two historical facts, syphilis and HIV outbreaks, tend to believe that prostitution has always been wrong. The popular statement of “selling your body is wrong” has, surprisingly, not always been around us. Such a statement began to gain popularity in the XVI century with the introduction of syphilis into European society. Only then did parlours and brothels begin to be outlawed and penalised. 

Why do people claim sex work is wrong? The statement that “Prostitution is wrong because selling your body is wrong” has no grounds by itself. This is called, in philosophy, the “fallacy of begging the question”, which leads to pseudo-debating in circles without getting anywhere. Stronger arguments to support the premise that is wrong are: STIs, crime, high expense on social resources, drugs, and human trafficking.

Sexually transmitted diseases (STIs) happen because of misinformation in society as a whole: after all, a sex worker cannot spread a disease without a client, which must have 50% the responsibility for the sexual encounter having taken place, let alone with not enough protection, which is always the client’s choice. Society is responsible for STIs happening and yet, the blame is seldom on the John and always on the sex providers.

Crime incidence is well-known to be higher in prostitution scenarios. But it isn’t the sex-money transaction that makes it be that way: crime rates are simply higher in vulnerable populations. Sex workers belong to an inherently dangerous environement. As such, society should aim to protect them and grant them the rights they deserve. A society that disregards, neglects or even punishes a minority is not progressive. Where would we be now if blacks, women, homosexuals, and other minorities hadn’t fought for their rights? In the same way that victims of rape are never in fault for “dressing provocatively”, sex workers are not to blame for “putting themselves in dangerous scenarios”. They have their own reasons to be where they are and to do what they do. They don’t have to find another path and they don’t need to be offered an alternative means of income: sex workers do not need salvation but protection.

“Sex workers do not need salvation but protection”

Another concern when it comes to sex work in a society is the higher expense that happens as a result of it. It comes in many ways: programmes to re-incorporate former sex workers back into society, higher use of anti-crime units, and public health expenses. The latter, as has been aforementioned, is not the result of sex work. Anti-crime units are indeed more demanded because of the higher vulnerability that this group belongs to; and it is in society’s power to deem them entitled to the rights and security they deserve. If that was the case, there would be no need for a higher expense in police resources. The programmes that aim to put current and former sex workers back into society cannot be criticised, as they are a normal occurrence in a bigger society. So are the programmes targeted to homeless people, people with cancer, and people with disabilities.

Some people mistakenly think that drugs are necessarily a component of prostitution. As in any other environment: there may be or there may be no drugs. Sex work doesn’t mean drugs. Drugs don’t mean crime. They only do so when society can’t handle them properly. Policing prostitution based on the incidence of drugs is unfair. It is using a stereotype to categorise people based on a judgemental presumption without being given the right to speak: not all prostitutes use drugs.   

“Policing prostitution based on the incidence of drugs is unfair. It is using a stereotype to categorise people based on a judgemental presumption without being given the right to speak: not all prostitutes use drugs.” 

There is a huge misconception that links human trafficking to prostitution. Human trafficking is at the same level as rape, kidnapping, and murder. It is, without a doubt, one of the most horrific things that can exist in a society. Trying to tackle human trafficking by criminalising prostitution is like trying to cover the sun with one finger. The fact that human trafficking involves the prostitution of its victims, does not mean that all prostitutes are trafficked. The vast majority of prostitutes are free men and women. Furthermore, how can the criminalisation of prostitution help against human trafficking? If sex workers are seen as outlaws, they will not help towards that cause. Special units could benefit from sex workers’ knowledge to collaborate together towards the mutual goal of eliminating human trafficking.

Prostitution was for many centuries not seen as contemptible. Everything changed after the introduction of syphilis from the Americas into Europe in the XV century and its big outbreak in the XVI century. The perception that sex work is wrong took more momentum with the HIV epidemic on the late XX century. Where do we stand right now? Is sex work still wrong in this age of science and medicine? Is it still wrong now that all STIs (HIV included) are curable and/or preventable?


We live in a society which mistakenly believes that closing our eyes makes bad things disappear. Let alone the fact that the definition of ‘bad things’ is very subjective and whatever people in the past dictated it to be, has been carried on to us and still lives with us today. There are some things that are inherently bad to society: theft and murder, for example, can hardly bring any benefit to it. But it is as outrageous as sad to see how neutral things are also censored and prohibited. Nudity is one of them.

It is hard to imagine and understand how this wicked perception even took place. Human body is part of nature and nature is a wonderful and perfect creation. Hence, we are perfectly made and there should be no shame in our bodies, regardless of how they are. We live in a culture that promotes and endorses ‘morbid’ feelings around things. It is through the censorship of nudity that we feel aroused by it. And it isn’t wrong to feel that way, but our bodies shouldn’t be seen as something to cover up. They are not dirty and they don’t bring harm to society. It is obviously convenient to use clothes for health reasons but other than their utility for that matter, there is no other reason to use them.


The fight against censorship on nudity starts today. A small contribution to the world is all it takes to change it. Society can’t progress and advance if the same set of values and culture is maintained as if it was frozen in time. Small changes can and do make the difference: going to a nude beach, wearing smaller clothes. Yes: most people don’t approve of it. But this world belongs to the youth. Their contact with the internet has unveiled the very-well-kept secret of how a human body looks like in full nudity. Hence, newer generations can acknowledge how natural it is to embrace our own bodies and to stop feeling shame from something that must have never made us feel that way.

Toxic Masculinity

In a society in which women are fighting for their rights for equality, it is easy to miss women’s privilege and focus on that of men only. Among the many benefits that the female gender is entitled to, there is the acceptance to expressing their feelings; men doing so are not seen as living their gender roles properly.

Masculinity. It carries a lot of meaning from the biological point of view; more so from the societal consideration. Masculinity is both the propeller for innovative ventures and for reckless behaviour. How far can it go? As far as people are willing to take it. It depends on the environment: there are places, especially work places, where it can become toxic. ‘Toxic Masculinity’ is the concept that defines an environment in which the high concentration of males, creates a deviated reality of society: money, drugs, heterosexual sex, party, slurs, swearing, trucks, alcohol, and other stuff of the like are seen as something to look up to. The expression of one’s own feelings is seen as something negative and undesirable. This applies even to family love, let alone a partner’s love… homosexuality? Not even mention it.

Masculinity keeps manual labour running; it feeds the camps to incentivise work and make long shifts happen. But it is also the cause of a great depression. The higher incidence of suicide in those environments can be attributed to the toxicity of masculinity. Where does it even start? It starts not in those all-men places but in our daily stance towards the male role. We endorse it every time we say ‘men don’t cry’, ‘be a man and dare to do it’, ‘that isn’t a man’s task’.


Funny is the fact that nothing you’re reading here is new to you, for this is not a new discovery. It is something that we, as a part of this society we live in, should be consciously aware of and try to shift it to make the most out of masculinity without the toxic effects it can reach.     

The Role of Sex Workers in Society

People mistakenly believe that ‘if you charge for sex, it means you don’t like it’” It is worth analysing why such a statement is wrong.

What do we tell a child who loves animals? We advise him to become a veterinarian, so that he doesn’t stay away from animals, which is what she loves. What do we tell a teenager who loves programming? We tell him he should study computer science so that he works in the field he loves. What do we tell our friend, Jerry, when he tells us he’s found out he doesn’t like medicine after studying it for 3 years, and that all his devotion is food and cooking? We advise him to follow his dreams and do what he likes so that he doesn’t feel like he has to ‘go to work’ for the rest of his life. That’s how our society works: if we do what we love the most, we thrive at what we do; we embrace it, and we want to do it. Otherwise, we feel miserable and overwhelmed by doing something we don’t like. Someone who loves sex so much can’t picture his or her life without it. Those individuals can find in sex work the path to fulfill their passion.

“Someone who loves sex so much can’t picture his or her life without it. Those individuals can find in sex work the path to fulfill their passion”

Sex work is a very particular job for many reasons. Books can be written to name them all and to talk about them in detail. One of them is the sense that many people have: they assume that those who sell sex don’t like doing it. Such a misconception may have a wide variety of origins, and it may be true in some rare instances. In all other jobs, we assume people like doing what they do: be it construction, plumbing, cleaning, daycare, teaching, nursing, medicine, engineering, etc. But prostitution as a job is automatically assumed to be disliked by those who do it. Everyday, we see people doing jobs they don’t like and yet, we never stop to question ourselves whether or not they are happy. And we acknowledge that only they can opine on it. Why do people assume all sex workers dislike what they do? Only because that’s something that you wouldn’t like doing, doesn’t mean that nobody likes it either. There are happy toddler teachers even if some people can’t stand children. In the same way, there are happy sex workers even if most people can’t stand the idea of being paid for sex.    

“People mistakenly believe that those who sell sex don’t genuinely like having sex”

One of the reasons for which sex work is not taken seriously as a job is because some people believe that nobody should charge for sex. Those who believe that it must be condemned, probably ignore that it wasn’t always like that. It was accepted for many centuries until more recently, syphilis and HIV made people think of it as a cancer for society. Nowadays, that HIV is preventable and syphilis is curable and preventable, prostitution should take back its place in society. Sex work is work. As such, people who do it, deserve being paid for it. People don’t go around asking the dealer to give away cars. They acknowledge that selling cars is his means of income and it wouldn’t be sustainable for him otherwise. Same goes for a psychologist. Yet, a sex worker’s time is often underappreciated and dismissed as a profession.

Some people claim that prostitution is not a real job because prostitutes don’t produce anything tangible. Neither do psychologists, priests, artists, beggars, or politicians. Yet, they are part of our society for a reason: because some people need them. Some people benefit from improving their mental health, working on their faith and spirituality, their entertainment, their managing public resources, or their ability to make you feel like you’re helping others. Sex workers don’t produce anything tangible but they do bring many benefits to society that are very much neglected: through fulfilling fantasies, they help to prevent child abuse. Through satisfying a man’s urge to get a mistress, they prevent him from getting one, which could lead to divorce, broken families, and even murder. Through their touch they can heal emotions. Through their connection they can help those alienated from society and those who wouldn’t have a human touch otherwise. Sex workers make a society stronger through subtle actions that are very hard to measure but very easy to see.

“Some people claim that prostitution is not a real job because prostitutes don’t produce anything tangible, but sex workers make a society stronger through subtle actions that are very hard to measure but very easy to see”

Sex work isn’t the nasty, censorable action that many people want to see in it. It is an exchange of money for a service that brings lots of benefits for the customer and for society as a whole. Some years in the future, it is deemed to gain its place back in society that it once had, and it deserves.

Compulsive Writing

One of the best things about writing — or about writing beautifully, at least — is that you always get to say the last word. Who would question the veracity of a talented painter who made a portrait of his wife? We automatically consider it to be as real as it can be; he is just assumed to have done it right. Philosophy demonstrates that we, humans, are like that. The magic of being a writer is the automatic rightness that you’re granted as such. Who can refute Dostoevski, Tolstoy, or Nabokov? It’s called the writers’ privilege. Hence, writing can be so addictive to the point of reaching compulsive writing.

For those who don’t suffer from it, it is hard to believe, let alone understand, that compulsive writing exists. As its name implies, it is a form of compulsion: the irresistible urge to do something. Compulsive writing is the necessity to write. As all compulsions, it has its origin in an obsession, which is way more complex to understand than the act itself: the thought, the idea in our minds that makes you feel that you have to write. It isn’t easy to escape obsessive compulsive behavior. The feeling of reward one feels after completing the compulsion (that is, writing) is so high that the brain actively looks for it. Think of it as a drug: it is no different than drinking coffee. Coffee addicts can’t think of living without it. They make all sorts of excuses to justify why they have to drink. In the same way, compulsive writers try to find a justification for their compulsive disorder. In both scenarios the truth is that we can dispense with it. We don’t need coffee, and neither do we need to write. 

And yet there is this false feeling of achievement in writing. It is addictive because there is always something to write about. No matter how far your novel is. No matter how many novels you publish. There is such a vast number of words that they can be arranged in many more ways than we could ever think of. There they are, wild and free in the dictionary and the thesaurus, waiting for you to group them together and build beautiful compositions with them. There’s always a thought to share, a feeling to express, a story to be told. There is fulfillment in each piece of literature written, indeed, but there are more ideas to be developed than there is time (life) to write them

Some people consider compulsive writing as a sign of loneliness. The need to write seems to be based on the inability to share our thoughts with others in our in-person life. Hence, we find shelter in paper and pens. You write on and on. You write until you’re tired. But why do ideas keep on coming? Others suggest that, rather than loneliness, it is the wish to be somewhere else instead. There is a big truth in it. Writing opens the doors towards a different universe, to reminiscences from the past, or predictions of the future. But the biggest quality of writers is being great listeners. We cannot write about what we don’t know. We can make use of fiction but there will ever be some hidden element of truth in it, built in our minds according to what we are familiar with. Hence, being a writer is being a listener.

That being said, it is also worth mentioning that being a writer is being an artist: what is literature if not a portal through alternate realities and the expression of experiences and feelings that other people (or the writer himself) have lived. In the same way that a painter’s piece expresses his ways, a writer’s piece is a portal to express what hasn’t been said and to say what others couldn’t put into words. Be it the reason it may be: not being able to write, censorship, fear, lack of time. That’s where writers come into play: we are the medium to connect silent people to those eager to listen.  

Literature is vast. There are poems, history books, fiction and non-fiction novels, drama, comedy, etc. Compulsive writing that involves the creation of characters allows us to make people talk and behave our way. We can control what happens and we can make things happen the way we want them to. The obsession comes from the incapacity of doing so in the real world. Hence, the parallel world we create is a refuge from the imperfection of the real world. There we can fix boredom, evil, naivety, love, hate, anger, etc. We can make things happen our way. It is like watching a movie, but you can control everything to go the way you want it. But there’s a limit to it. The characters are alive. Yes: they are very much alive. There is only so much you can do with them, because they develop their own personality and their own behavior. Sometimes you wish you could help them from trouble but they can’t see their world as you can. That’s equivalent to being this universe, in which we live, the literary creation of somebody. As such, all the imperfections occur and we see the events take place sometimes against our will.       

Writing never ends. However, the false feeling of completing something is always there. There’s a word quota and deadlines simply because it makes it feel like we are progressing. You climb that mountain, only to discover that there is another one to climb… and another after that. Writing allows us to intensify the feelings that in real life are more restrained. Friendship in real life is volatile, for example. Friendship in fiction is everlasting. Love in real life is limited. Love in fiction can beat any obstacle, distance and time. That’s why writing fiction is so addictive: we aim for perfection in an imperfect world. 

When we complete literature pieces, regardless of how small, our brain finally rests. We are rewarded by that false feeling of being productive for having written something that wasn’t written before. Hence, we want to write and get rewarded. It is so addictive that it can even prevent us from living our lives outside our fictional worlds. The irony is that in order to create our fictional worlds we need stories, and those stories can’t happen if we don’t go out and live. Hence, our passion for writing should also inspire us to go outside and live. If the brain understood this, we wouldn’t feel anxiety when we are away from writing…

Genes from ancestors

Some people read history without much care about the details written on it. There are persons who can read pages of a history book without being touched. Those who do it that way, forget that the word “history” is not a void concept of “what happened n years ago”. It is a meaningful way to express what our relatives of the past lived. And what our offspring will know about us. It is a deep feeling that we carry on in our genetic material. A magic gift that we were given. Those who don’t feel it, live and die empty. Many try to find comfort in god or an entity they can’t see. Such entity is the contribution of all our ancestors together, to become alive through us once again.

We all have it in our blood but most of us don’t have time to meditate and bring that energy back to our bodies. Crystals, god, prayers, amulets… Nothing can ever bring the magic that acknowledging our true nature can. We are the living entity of something being carried on for so long. We weren’t born 20, 30, or 80 years ago but million of years ago when our first gene chains began to exist.

One day, we will all acknowledge that we are a higher entity than ourselves. A more complex entity than a mere human body alone: a society, a race, that has the contribution of every single person who ever lived on this planet… and one day even further than this planet will it be.

Quick note on penis length

For many years, penis has been an instrument of masculinity. Contrary to old-time Greeks, where it was testicles the ultimate feature of masculinity, a good sized penis has become one of the most valuable features in a man today. Such assumption mostly prevails in both men and women: a big penis is a symbol of beauty, masculinity, and even power.

It is due to its symbolic meaning that people (mostly men, and gay men in particular, of course) are obsessed with its size. The obsession towards penis size has been taken so far, that men have begun to lie about their true size. It is totally understandable; yet, it is completely unacceptable. 

I am a man of duty. I endorse honesty and respect. That’s the reason for which I refuse to label my penis as a 9″ one. 7.5″ it is, and I am proud of it as it is. 7.5″ is more than enough to not fit everywhere. It is a good size and there is no need to write it as something that it isn’t. I could easily get away with it but I refuse to join that cause. Penis is not a symbol of masculinity, power, and beauty. It is simply a beautiful part of the body, as many others. In porn, a 5″ penis will be called 7″ already. That probably means that people would think of mine as a 5″ one when they read I am 7.5″. So be it. I would like those people to grab a ruler right now and see what 5,6,7,8″ are. That fear of labeling penis length as it is comes from the assumption that the bigger the better. So men become nervous around it and write an extra 1 or 2″ of what they truly have. 


All it takes is a ruler and to remember math classes from grade 1 for how to use it. It only useful and convenient to be honest both to ourselves and to others. The right condom can only be chosen matching a penis size and the only way to achieve that is to measure it properly. It is even dangerous to do so: using condoms that are bigger than they should be can make them loose and ineffective towards what they are meant to do.

Penis enlargement is not the solution. The solution is to stop giving penis the magic powers that it doesn’t have. Let’s stop claiming what we don’t have. I invite you to embrace reality and make the most out of it. 


Passing the Baton

I typed “Self Suck” on the web search the other day. Nice to have found a picture of mine among the results. At the beginning it felt awesome. I thought of how much I would love that my art would survive through the annals of time. But then I realized that nothing in this universe is immortal. We, and everything we do will die hopelessly. How meaningful what you do is doesn’t really matter.

We are fleeting. And so is the beauty of what we do so passionately. But our legacy stays. I’m not the guy on the web search engine anymore. And never will I be, once my website is down in a future that I can’t imagine right now… 

I hope, however, to inspire  other fellows on this same track of mine. I wish I am helping them to attain happiness, the same way I did with the inspiration I got from others who were on this path before me.

It is relieving to imagine that 100 and 1000 years from now, there will still be other guys enjoying sex as I do, and sharing their talent as I wish to do. I am happy to “pass the baton” to others so that they can rejoice from being alive.

What's immortality, paradise, and perfection

Immortality is a concept that doesn’t pertain to us. This universe was created with a beginning and with an end.

We can’t and we shouldn’t think of “immortality” because it doesn’t belong to this universe we live in. When religion portrays the perfection of life after life through infinity, it is always based on terrenal desires and that doesn’t make sense. Our terrenal wishes can only be fulfilled when our lives are governed by time. Is paradise a place where there’s endless food, sex, and sleep? It can’t be, because those desires of fulfillment are based on the lack of them to be appreciated. Excercise can be either a suffering and a pleasure, for example, in different points of our days and our lives. We enjoy the pleasure of stop suffering their deficit. Hence, that’s not divine. That is how paradise looks like from our humble terrenal point of view.  Furthermore, our egoistic desires are only the result of harming others, be it animals, plants, other humans who don’t share our same religion, etc.  

The real perfection of a paradise cannot be based on a desire-satisfaction basis. It can’t be governed by time. Take a widow for example. She has found love again but she truly loved her deceased husband. Will she live her after-life with the previous or the new one? The perfection of paradise goes beyond that banality because there is no such thing as “time” anymore. 

Let’s be humble and accept the reality as it is: we are simple humans, a small creation of what we call “God”. We are neither the favourite nor the only creation of “Him”. Let’s stop worrying about hell and paradise; we will all get to that “after-life” at some point. Only then will we enjoy the perfection of this universe of which we know so little.

Society, the macro-organism we are part of

In the same way that our bodies are composed of living cells, we are the living cells bringing life to bigger entities that we call “States, countries, and humanity”. There are people who are in charge of leading others, in the same way that neurons do. They are not necessarily the best ones to lead others; they can, in fact, lead others to self destruction, as in the case of suicide.

Modern society makes us feel that individual sentiments are less meaningful than those of bigger social group. While it may be true that a bigger entity is more complex and more valuable than an individual, let’s not forget that analyzing our presence in the world is senseless. Social media and modern society in general makes us feel like our voice is only heard depending on the number of people it reaches. It is true that the impact is measured that way, but what is the real significance of your voice being heard all over the world while you have only one life to live? Only a few people will ever get close to you. 

Yes, a macro-organism is more complex and more valuable than a single person from the biological point of view. That’s why a person whose voice is heard and acclaimed worldwide seems to have more value. But that’s only the result of social media and modern society. Regardless, we are and will ever be simple humans being part of bigger entities.

Porn vs art

I am a big fan of art in all its forms. I simply believe that the complexity of our human species is more elevated when measured by the art it can create. That’s why I love sex as a means of expression to make art with it. Sex may be art. Porn involves sex but seldom is it art. There is a clear distinction between the simple sex and artistic sex.  Those who are sensible can know what the difference is. My sexual art may not be that of a great artist, but it is through my writing that it becomes the neat sexual art that I am so very proud of.